Everything slows down as I watch the image in a polaroid emerge.
Softly and slowly what was once a blank slate becomes a clear picture.
Watching the moment I just experienced become something I can hold onto tangibly.
To tell you the truth my heart is a bit heavy today. Grief is strange creature. Even years later (7 years in this case) it still visits us on those days when that person left the earth, we got the call or found out the news. It is uncomfortable to walk through the world on these days with a heavy heart yet at the same time I wouldn’t want it any other way.
To not let those people disappear into the background of the story. But to have those moments when you still want to shout out loud like on that first day you found out “Do you know what an incredible person once walked this earth and is now gone?” To remember they were once here and to remember what they taught you.
So on this day, every year, I let the world slow down like when I watch a polaroid emerge. For this day, I let that grief that is not a part of daily life anymore, have a place to sing her song.