I’m mighty excited to share a few new features here on the blog, one of them being this one…a series of posts about going outside of my comfort zone in my self-portrait adventures and inviting you to join me.  We talk about going outside our comfort zones lots in Be Your Own Beloved because, well, the whole experience is outside of the comfort zone for many folks who sign up for the class…in fact, that is who I created the class for!  For you who the idea of taking a self-portrait or selfie feels mighty vulnerable.

Because its in these places where we are outside of our comfort zones that the biggest awakenings happen.  When we shift from “Oh my….I can’t do this” but we push through and try, realizing in the process that there is indeed something pretty wonderful outside of our comfort zones.

I also know that from the outside, it must look like this all comes pretty easy, that I’m totally comfortable taking selfies.  But thats not totally true.  While it has definitely become a lot easier to push past my inner critic (or have it not even invited along on the photo walk) I most definitely do have a comfort zone and like to stay within it!

So I’m wanting to dare myself to step out of it more and thought I’d share the process with you & invite you to join me!

I know these photos might not look from the outside like they’d be outside of my comfort zone as they are a similar style of photo as I usually take but the location…that was the ‘outside the comfort zone’ part!  I had just gone out on a short photo walk at magic hour with my camera.  I hadn’t taken many photos, because…well, sometimes it ends up just being more about the walk than the photos!  I was almost home when I saw that on my street there were the most dreamy light rays falling on the ground.

But it was right outside my house.

As in visible from my upstairs and next door neighbours.

I’ve been known to take a lot of photos nearby home.  For example the one I tell the story about in this post is taken in a small lane way right behind my house, but there is a fence blocking me from my neighbours views.  Or I may take foot photos right in front of the house, with the camera aiming downward, but to put the camera down right there in full view of my neighbours.  That feels vulnerable.

Usually I head a few blocks away where I can be that quirky girl who is twirling in the alleyway again, rather than “Thats Vivienne who lives right over there who is twirling in the street”!  That difference makes that jump from the inside to the outside of my comfort zone, big time!  Its being seen by folks who know where I live that feels vulnerable.

But those light rays.

Oh my.  I couldn’t walk by them.

So it went something like this:

“Just take one, okay.  You can do it.  I dare you”

Click.

“Okay, none of my neighbours seem to be looking out their windows…lets keep going”

Click

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I check the back of the camera and I’m loving that perspective of the light rays.

“Viv…just go for it…try a twirl”

Click

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“Eeek…that was so outside of my comfort zone but dude…that was awesome”

And then I run back across the street to my house to upload them and get back in my comfort zone.  But I’m mighty glad I went for it!

Want to go outside your comfort zone and take a self-portrait today?  What would that be for you today? Maybe taking your first self-portrait?  Or taking it from a perspective that is new or outside of your comfort zone?  Or maybe it is sharing it that is outside of your comfort zone!

If you do, please do tag it with #beyourownbeloved on Instagram, Twitter  or Facebook as I’d love to see it and leave you a comment to celebrate YOU going outside of your comfort zone!

Or maybe taking Be Your Own Beloved has felt oh so outside of your comfort zone and you’re ready to go for it (and the June class is about to begin)!

And I’m mighty excited to dare myself to get outside my comfort zone more and share these stories with you & I hope you’ll join me!

Sometimes it isn’t just our inner critic that might stop us from taking self-portraits.

Sometimes it is someone else who is criticizing what we are doing in taking our selfies or self-portraits.  While some surely are lighthearted and easy to brush off, other times it might feel downright hurtful.

So what do we do when we have an outer critic, be it a friend, a partner or a stranger, criticizing our journey?

I had an example of this happen the other day, on Instagram in fact.  Now, while I’m all for constructive criticism in appropriate settings (like a feedback form after a class, or if I request that kind of feedback in my Mastermind Group on something I’m sharing)…Instagram…just isn’t the place for that.  In fact it has always felt like my happy place, where people comment with kindness and I feel free to share both self-portraits and my everyday images.

So I was shocked when someone started commenting on a whole pile of my photos over a day, pointing out how many foot photos I take and how they thought I should ‘challenge myself more’.   It definitely hit a nerve (well, and mostly the way they did it commenting on an excessive number of photos as though I had asked them to critique my work).

To be told I don’t challenge myself felt so strange.  It made something rise up in me saying “Are you kidding me?  Do you think doing this work is easy?  I challenge myself every single frickin’ day”.   To have my self-portraits judged for being too simplistic irked me at the core, as while yes…I do share a lot of foot self-portraits, it is done so in the way that I’m consciously living my work, participating in the kinds of activities I’m asking participants in my classes to do (plus, foot photos rock).  I suppose in their mind this person wanted me to do more photographically complex self-portraits (maybe levitating, doing those surreal type self-portraits) but dude…thats just not my thing.

This energy of anger rising up in me is a gift in a way…its an energy of self-empowerment, of knowing my truth even if someone else can’t see it.  This is one of the things I think we can gift ourselves with when faced with an outer critic.  We can listen to the inner knowing that arises (indeed sometimes in the form of anger)!  It felt like it was a doorway to reminding myself that I believe in what I’m doing and who I am, even  if some random stranger doesn’t!

So I think these moments of unsolicited critique can spark self-belief (though they sure don’t feel that great at the time, does it)!  In this situation I quickly realized that this had absolutely nothing to do with me and had everything to do with that person likely feeling stuck and not challenged in their own photography path.

A stranger may be easier to brush off than a family member or friend, but in all of those cases it is important for us to remember it probably really has nothing to do with us personally, or our self-portrait.  It is bringing something up in the other persons path.  Would it be appreciated if they kept it to themselves rather than passed it on to us?  Heck yes.  But that isn’t always the case, so we have to figure out for each of us, how to handle the aftermath and not let ourselves feel paralyzed by the experience.

But what do we do when the outer critics appear?

One of the most important things I’ve found is that critique is an opportunity to look at ourselves, our work, our creative process, or growth and to remind ourselves of what we are proud of, of what we’ve done, of what feels important to us.  I know it can feel pretty debilitating sometimes to not feel supportive but as it was in my recent example, it really gives us the chance to show up and support ourselves.  To ground ourselves in the belief in what we are going.  To say ‘No, I don’t agree and I believe in what I’m doing and the way I’m doing it”.

I feel like we are often enough of our own critic and while critique can help us grow, it can also feel really damaging and an invitation to feel small.  So there are times & places where we can seek out critique if we want that push to grow, but otherwise I just really think we deserve the right to create in a place of feeling safe from being unexpectedly criticized.

A few other things that I’ve found really helpful in dealing with outer critics is:

• Remember that unsolicited critique is probably WAY more about the other person than ourselves. Are they frustrated with their own creative path so they are critiquing yours?
• Ponder how much value I put in their critique.  Are they someone I admire who has been ahead of me in their creative or entrepreneurial path who might be trying to ‘save me from their mistakes’ (but of course we still have to go our own way).  Are they someone who I feel treats me with kindness generally?
• To engage or not to engage…indeed that is the question.  That is really up to you, and probably dependant on whether the critic is family or friends or folks we’d like to communicate & share our perspective (and stand up for ourselves).  I know when I’ve stood up for myself and expressed my point of view, it felt good but then quickly felt like they weren’t going to see my perspective no matter what, so shifting towards self-care & resilience in my own emotions often seems like the best path to move forward.
• Have a few people who you feel like you can safely go to for constructive criticism and value there opinion over unsolicited critique!
• If it is unsolicited critique from a stranger (or a friend) on social media, remember that we have tools there to help us feel safe.  You could create filters on Facebook that have people in the ‘close friend’ or ‘acquaintance’ category and put folks who you feel support your creative path in one category and those who don’t in another, and then share your creative path with those who you trust.  In the case of an Instagram critic, I found myself feeling shame the next time I went to post a foot selfie and you know what…this path is really about reducing shame so I felt really comfortable blocking this person so I could share foot photos as usual without further unsolicited critique.  In this case, they didn’t cross the line into the zone of needing to be ‘reported’ so just blocking them made me feel safe, but sometimes real live critics (not just our inner ones) can venture into inappropriate territory that can only be defined as ‘troll’ behaviour so in those cases there are further measures we can take to protect ourselves.
• Take back your power!  Remind yourself of how YOU see yourself and your work and what you are proud of!
• Experience supportive community, like in Be Your Own Beloved.  As I mentioned in this post, the supportive energy of sharing self-portraits in the context of a class like this can be deeply healing.  We gain more belief in ourselves and we are deeply supported & encouraged by the other participants as we explore something that for many of us is really vulnerable.  To regain trust, especially if we have been hurt by outer critics, can be really powerful!

I hope this is helpful to you and next time someone sends some unsolicited critique our way, lets arm ourselves with some of these tools to cultivate resilience and get back to the fun & powerful tool of taking self-portraits!